another chapter of closure....

you never leave a good book unread, you never leave good dessert uneaten, you never leave the house with out taking a shower or brushing your teeth, and a new rule to add to my list you never let love go without closure. after six years in the life as we call it, and many attempts at successful relationships their was one that just got me. earlier this year after taking a break from dating after a horrible experience with a crazy bastard, i decided to jump back into the dating arena. 2007 brought a lot of changes, and by february of this year i was completely comfortable with dating again. one major difference was I was in my hometown, and lets just say the selection was horrible. i found someone and decided that he must have been Heaven sent, and I was going to do right by this man, he was older and established. to make a long story short it didn't work, and i was so hurt and disappointed because i changed so much, and did so much for the good, and i felt like he didn't care. we went our separate ways, and it was not until tonight i told him how i felt and how things had happened, and how much he hurt me, and for the first time i felt like he cared....normally apologies don't mean shit, but his did, because i felt like i opened up to him to let him know the shit was real f**ked up, and their was no way to sugarcoat it, and i didn't try to. you see i feel like it's terrible to make someone else suffer for something that a previous cats did, so address it and move on.........