The Prodigal Son- A letter to TD Jakes from his son

Well, this morning I woke up to am e-mail with a link from Youtube that has gone viral overnight. If you follow my blog or even if not I had a post back in February of 2009 when Bishop T.D. Jake's son was was accused of exposing himself in front of an undercover vice detective at a city park in Oak Cliff.  The Bishop apparently never issued a statement regarding the matter, other than a few reports saying it was private family matter. Well apparently his son it still having some very deep emotional issues that have not healed, and as I posted back in 2009 another PK (Pastor's Kid) gone WILD. I guess society deems these children as either perfect, or just terrible, however after watching this video clip from a poetry slam, I feel so bad that this man is hurting, and I'd just like to pray his healing process can begin soon. NEvertheless once the media get a hold of this, it will go even more viral, and he will likely be on every talk show before the end of the week! 

Check out the video and tell me your thoughts! 

Copyright 2011 Terrance O. Gilbert All Rights Reversed!

Luke 15:11-32 (New International Version)

The Parable of the Lost Son

 ¹¹ Jesus continued: “There was a man who had two sons. ¹² The younger one said to his father, ‘Father, give me my share of the estate.’ So he divided his property between them.

   ¹³ “Not long after that, the younger son got together all he had, set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living. ¹⁴ After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine in that whole country, and he began to be in need. ¹⁵ So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs. ¹⁶ He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything.

   ¹⁷ “When he came to his senses, he said, ‘How many of my father’s hired servants have food to spare, and here I am starving to death! ¹⁸ I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. ¹⁹ I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired servants.’ ²⁰ So he got up and went to his father.

   “But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.

   ²¹ “The son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.’

   ²² “But the father said to his servants, ‘Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. ²³ Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let’s have a feast and celebrate. ²⁴ For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’ So they began to celebrate.

   ²⁵ “Meanwhile, the older son was in the field. When he came near the house, he heard music and dancing. ²⁶ So he called one of the servants and asked him what was going on. ²⁷ ‘Your brother has come,’ he replied, ‘and your father has killed the fattened calf because he has him back safe and sound.’

   ²⁸ “The older brother became angry and refused to go in. So his father went out and pleaded with him. ²⁹ But he answered his father, ‘Look! All these years I’ve been slaving for you and never disobeyed your orders. Yet you never gave me even a young goat so I could celebrate with my friends. ³⁰ But when this son of yours who has squandered your property with prostitutes comes home, you kill the fattened calf for him!’

   ³¹ “‘My son,’ the father said, ‘you are always with me, and everything I have is yours. ³² But we had to celebrate and be glad, because this brother of yours was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’”

another chapter of closure....

you never leave a good book unread, you never leave good dessert uneaten, you never leave the house with out taking a shower or brushing your teeth, and a new rule to add to my list you never let love go without closure. after six years in the life as we call it, and many attempts at successful relationships their was one that just got me. earlier this year after taking a break from dating after a horrible experience with a crazy bastard, i decided to jump back into the dating arena. 2007 brought a lot of changes, and by february of this year i was completely comfortable with dating again. one major difference was I was in my hometown, and lets just say the selection was horrible. i found someone and decided that he must have been Heaven sent, and I was going to do right by this man, he was older and established. to make a long story short it didn't work, and i was so hurt and disappointed because i changed so much, and did so much for the good, and i felt like he didn't care. we went our separate ways, and it was not until tonight i told him how i felt and how things had happened, and how much he hurt me, and for the first time i felt like he cared....normally apologies don't mean shit, but his did, because i felt like i opened up to him to let him know the shit was real f**ked up, and their was no way to sugarcoat it, and i didn't try to. you see i feel like it's terrible to make someone else suffer for something that a previous cats did, so address it and move on.........

sometimes we seek too much....

a lot of people look @ me and think because of my attitude and persona i am not a relationship oriented person. i usually stay away from the relationship thing when i am not in one, but this week so much has happened that decided to do a little post on relationship according to tog. i have been a openly sgl man for 6 years now, and of that time about 5 years i have been in some type of serious relationship. When i was new to the game having a boyfriend was simply "cute" i had on for the sake of having one after my first and longest relationship was over. had the person to call a lover yet i was still talking to other dudes, and not taking anything seriously. i have always been content with being alone, but the image of having a fine dude by your side is one of my weaknesses. then their was another relationship, we seemed to have it all, the nice crib, the cars to match, and i even was able to make him over from a over weight sales rack from ross dress for less wearing, to a galleria shopping urban attractive dude. it didn't work, simply because HE DIDN'T WORK, no income, and major bills bring major problems. if i have to miss a trip to the galleria or a vacation because of two car notes, and rent i get a bit temperamental. when it come to relationships i look at what many look at in a mate, size matters to most, but to me size matters not in the pants, but in how you treat me. size matter when i look into your eyes, and you look into mine. in this life sex defines relationships and that is so wrong. it's not ALL about between the sheet, but it's about how you fuck my mind with your words, and how you as my mate make me feel. it means getting that text from you to tell me how much you are thinking about me, missing me, and wanting to be with me. it's about sharing a vision for growth, and love among other things...i often wonder sometimes do we week too much, or not enough??

understanding beyonce a little better.......hell her songs are my life...

so those of you that know me know even being from metro Houston, Texas, i am not a huge fan of beyonce`, i was a huge fan of the ORIGINAL destiny child, but when they made all those changes and i read the stories of what happened it changed my mind on the group, and particularly beyonce and the knowles family. well with growing, you change your mind about people and things, and she is actually becoming a little tolerable. well when her sophomore album deja vu dropped last year i didn't like it initially, now months later i cannot get enough of it. from waking up to get me bodied every morning for workout, to jammin kitty kat, deja va, and irreplaceable, it has grown on me....

irreplaceable in retrospective... for those of you that use facebook you know that my relationship status has changed a few times over the last two weeks. well a couple of months ago i met someone and i thought it was someone i could grow to love, and have something "real" that so many people say they want, however it wasn't. when i decided to start dating i told myself i would revert back to dating older dudes, and that is what i did, but when you date a older guy, you would think his shit is together, but sometimes i find myself as a 21 year old being more goal-oriented, and focused. it's amazing my ex told my best friend he needed someone "Stronger" no you need someone you can walk over and tell anything to...anyways...i was upset decided to go to PRIDE, well i was walking in the parade and i made eye contact with this person. we exchanged number " i let the hrc group keep going, and stayed to get his number" well the following monday when i returned to work i found an e-mail from this person and decoded to see what it was all about. well within a few moments of chatting via e-mail we saw that we both wanted somewhat the same thing, a friend, and of course true love. now i am a huge love and relatiosnhip junkie, i think that is why i get hurt sooo much, well here are a week later, and we seem to be doing pretty well. he calls, we talk, my happiness seems to be important, he is gainfully employed, and a little closer to my age. i am excited to see what the future hold for us...as for what this has to do with ms. beyonce, i thank her for the inspiration of irreplaceable, i used to call it a hoe song, i now understand. to me it means that if you have confidence in yourself, and know the quality of person you are then no one or nothing is irreplaceable....

true love can not be expressed in words....

"the only time we don't speak is during sex & the city, I get carrie fever....."

i have had a few relationships in my time, but for the first time in my life i feel like i am truly in love. when you are 2000 miles away from your boyfriend, and you want to be with no one else, don' and not worry about him having wondering thoughts then that's love. in the past i have ahad a problem being who i really was for fears of acceptance, and not understanding the importance of true love. i have had those love me, i have been cheated on, i have done the cheating, i have been hurt, and i have hurt others. i have had the realtionships that i knew were not going to work, and just stayed in them to pass time, but i have realized something... life is too short and unpromising for us to be with someone or have soemthing that has us unhappy. over the past six month i have learned to love myself. when i was down and out, and had no one else except a bestfriend, someone from my past came into my life, and i truly feel that God bought us together once again. something if we sit back and wait, god will deliver us in more than one way. all the things i wanted in a dream guy i now have, i have me someone that can make me laugh, someone that i can have complex conversations with, someone who works hard, and dammit he even turned out to be a a kappa man.... the most important thing is he make me feel good in ways i cannot put into words, for the first time i feel like i have someone that is attempting to understand me, my thought process, and me in general, and for those of you that know me, know how hard that can be....kids, the upper westside apartment, and house in the hamptons are still a little way off, but the most important thing is i am happy, and i feel like i am free to be me for the first time...

Knowing Love....

LOVE IS A BITCH!!! Love is one of those things that we put so much energy into hoping for the best results, but it is so much of a gamble. Love is also very funny because eveyone has their own perception, or definition of what it is... In my opinion love for one of the few things that websters' cannot define, for we much give our own definition. So here is my story.... Love has been my bestfriend, yet my worst enemy, becasue when I love, I love hard. It is funny there have been timess when I felt like it was love, but it was not....Mary. J, Blige said that "A love that tears you down, ain't really love" and boy did that bich hit it on the head....After my last relationship I thought I would never be able to give my heart to anyone, and trust them... I feel back into the thinking that gay relationships are not meant to last, they are just a get it and move on. It was not until I sat down and really thought about some shit and came to some conclusions. I feel like I know what love is in my heart. If feel like you dont have to know EVERYTHING about someone to be in love with them, but if they make you feel ways and things you cannot even make yourself feel, or in my case myself, it's love to me. When you wake up in the morning with tha person on your mind before you even brush your teeth or even think about what you are going to wear for the day. Love is one of those things that every one trys to make a song about, and everyone tried to define, but we can of make our own definitions......